Over a month before she was diagnosed, I posted a blog called "The Guilt Trip: A Mother's Legacy to Her Daughter". It expressed some strong feelings I had at the time. Once she passed away, I debated about taking the post down out of respect for her, but decided against it - for two reasons: that blog represented feelings I had been dealing with my whole life and helped define my relationship with my mother, AND I refused to feel guilty about having those feelings at the time. I have learned that it is all right to accept our relationship as it was...full of passion, resentment, frustration, and love. Lots of love.
If you have time and would like to read it, click HERE. It's okay to laugh while reading it; I meant it to be lighthearted, though serious. I celebrate us: my mom and me everyday. I miss you, Mom.